Wordless Wednesday July 2, 2014

Bees do it... pollenate, I mean.

Bees do it… pollenate, I mean.

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Sowing Seeds of Happiness

 

Seedlings are really fun to watch!

Seedlings are really fun to watch!

I have been struggling lately. I sometimes feel as though I’m not meeting this (crazy high) standard that I’ve set for myself as a mother and wife. At times I feel judged for not being a working woman and I allow that to creep into how I view my success. My marriage is seven years in (eek!)… and it has its own special set of challenges for sure. I’m in my thirties and still don’t know what I want to be when I grow up (or how to even process that I AM grown up). I cannot say for certain what put me in this sudden state of discontent but I do know that it was not meant for me to stay there. So, I am starting a garden.

 

Now if you know me or have ever known me personally, you are laughing uncontrollably right now. I have an uncanny ability to kill most any plant, have no desire to be outdoors for any long period of time and have a serious fear of all insects that sting. Oh, and allergies. But for some reason, I’ve gotten this garden under my skin and I am DETERMINED to produce some delicious vegetables and fragrant flowers this spring and summer. I’ve already started the seedlings and they sprouted, so that’s a good sign… right? I kid.

 

At any rate, I feel really great about the progress I’m making. The blog redesign is exactly what I was hoping for. I am going out with my friends and family more. I am facing my fears (of both bees AND failure) by attempting to grow things that will help feed my family and save us money. I am looking forward to teaching my children what I learn about gardening. In the words of Veronica Shoffstall, I am “learning to plant my own garden and decorate my own soul.” And it feels more amazing than I ever knew it could.


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